Live, Laugh & Love - Life is too short to waste it

I'm feeling so uncomfortable, so restless la!!

Weather is damn hot today, and I hate it! Hate to sweat lor, and now I sweat damn easily.


Recently baby has been moving a lot and he's making me pain at times. That day I was still thinking what if I gave birth before the cesearean date?? Getting paranoid.....


I was telling Gordan that day, seriously I don't know how contractions feels like.

So what if I'm having contractions liao and I don't know that is contractions?? So scary la....

So, baby, please guai guai stay in mummy's tummy till the cesearean date ok??

Time seem to pass so slow nowadays, and I'm getting very hot tempered nowadays. Maybe because of the weather ba. Like I've said, I don't like to sweat and feel warm. So end up little things and I'm scolding Gordan liao..

Sorry my dear, but you got fault also de!

Yesterday stayed at Gordan's place the whole day, cause too lazy to take bus back. And wasn't in good mood also. Gordan's mom came to talk to me regarding baby's stuff, giving me suggestions and all. I know that she has good intentions, but given my character, I think I will go crazy stuck in the house facing her everyday. And furthermore, it will be hard on his parents if I were to stay there. With the baby crying, they no need sleep liao lor.


But please don't ask me, then where you going to stay and blah blah blah... I don't wish to answer any of it. And its irritating hearing it everytime. I don't even answer my family lor. So what if I say that, oh maybe after give birth, rent a place and we'll work and feed the baby.... But then if eventually that isn't how its going to be, then have to face people's critism again.

Basically, the future is unsure. I don't know what's going to happen. But no matter how hard, there will be a solution.

Don't even start about, "then you shouldn't be having the baby...."

You don't fuck and forget about your responsibility. You may not be giving your child the best but at least you gave him a life. And as parents, no matter how hard, you tell yourself you will raise the child well. Its not financially how much can you give him, but how much love and how you educate him.

And do you know that every abortion that u have decreases your chances to get pregnant again by 25%??

How many 25% do you have?

And there are other couples out there who spent tens of thousands trying for a baby. Consider yourself lucky to be able to conceive naturally.


Sorry if I sound harsh ya... But it just gets me worked up talking about this.

Anyway..... enjoy your weekend!!