Birth Story

Sorry for not having any pictures.

Cause I kept exchanging phone with Gordan during my time in hospital, cause can't charge there ma...

• 0730hrs - Reached K.K hospital do admission.
• 0815hrs - Brought to ward (Op scheduled at 230pm)
• 0945hrs - Asked Gordan go to his car and nap first. Took out my puzzle book and started doing.
• 143ohrs - Nurse came to bring me to operating theatre. Msg Gordan asked him to come up.
• 1450hrs - Was put on drip.
• 1500hrs - Given epidural. Waited for body numb then op started.
• 1515hrs - Feel nauseous, doctor inject medication.
• 1525hrs - Still complaining about nausea, doctor gave mask to breathe.
• 1537hrs - Baby Tyler born!

I'm having a phobia about epidural c-section liao lor. Its so scary!! And I kinda suspect I got claustophobia too. (means fear of being in enclosed space.) Cause during the op, there will be this cloth infont of me, to block me from seeing what's happening. Then I feel so suffocated, and I realise I'm gonna have a panic attack liao, so I keep trying to calm myself down. It feels like I'm dying lor!!! That's so scary right?


Then there's the side effects of epidural. Like shivering like crazy, nausea, itchiness.. I kena all lor!!! And the best part was, I even had gastric pains during the op la!! It made me almost rip off the cloth stand infront of me lah!


If I'm having another one, I'm totally going to go for fully asleep de liao. Don't want to go through this again lor!!!


Recovery was ok, and much better than my first one. I got up to walk on the 3rd day. Didn't start sooner, cause the urine bag still haven't remove then very uncomfortable. Very ma fan to walk around carrying the urine bag too.. And like very paiseh lor, walking around showing people how much you urine meh??


I started pumping my milk on the 3rd day too, but no milk yet lah. Had to pump every 2-3 hrs and Gordan's mum also cook the papaya soup for me. Finally milk came in on the 4th day, before I discharged. I wonder is it the pumping that works or the soup??


The hospital stay was good!!!! Their food,service and basically everything improved!! Last time their meals, the soup taste like water, the rice is hard and dry... Totally no appetite to eat their stuff. And their nurses is so friendly and professional lah.. Although there are a lot of medical students too.


And because I'm under subsidised class, so basically everything is paid by medisave. So no need to fork out so much cash. Yeah!!!

Hmmm..... finally finish my delivery story liao, wonder how will Su wen de be????

Isn't this sweet???

I've been a bad girl today......

I had Macdonalds!!!!!

(I'm still in confinement period..)

Today went out to get baby's name and get his birth cert done. We were given 10 2nd names and 10 3rd names to mix and match with. So headache lor!!!! So we think and think and think and finally settle on 1. Then went to SIR building to do the birth cert. After that came home liao....

Sian.... When can I eat whatever I want?????

Day 3 : Home with baby Tyler

I'm under so much emotional struggle now. Don't know what I want and don't know what I should do. But I know I can't let anything affect my emotions. Cause it may in turn affect my milk supply too. Remembering nurse said that cannot be stressed..

I'm currently breastfeeding now, and its damn tired!! Especially I'm not expressing out and just feeding baby directly so don't know how much he is drinking. On good times, maybe he'll feed every 2-3 hrs, but sometimes he just want to torture his mummy, so he decides to feed every hr!!! I'm feeling like such a cow lor....

But at least with each day passing by, I find myself learning more about him liao, so it gets more easier each day. But everyday there is also new problems too. And I definitely feel myself loving him more and more each day despite all the sleepless nights and backaches. Guess parenting is really a endless learning journey ...

Gonna bring him to polyclinic later liao, to check his jaundice level. That time when discharged it was 130 or so, then that day went check became 160!! Don't know is it because I'm breastfeeding then the jaundice got higher?? Anyway later my godma will pass me some herbs use for bath for baby jaundice de, hopefully it works ba... *pray*

*Photos update!!*

This pic reminds me so much of last time when Jun En is born lor.. Only that Tyler is chubbier..haha..

Peacefully sleeping in his rocking chair...

Hopefully he will have big big eyes also..

My chubby son..

*By the way, thanks dear, for being such a sweet hubby and daddy. Although I'm in my moody phase now, but really still I appreciate all that you've done. Jiayou for work, baby and me will be supporting you and praying for you. Love you!*

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to you

Happy birthday to little Jun En

Happy birthday to you

Finally you're 3... Although I can't celebrate with you on this day, I still hope you will have the happiest birthday ever. Love you my darling, happy birthday..

I love you!!!

But don't keep giving mummy trouble ok?? Hurts me to see you cry....

Tomorrow is the day liao, and I'm feeling so excited now!!


Today went K.K to do the pre-admission stuffs. Had a blood test, and it hurts lor!!! Normally they use the needle poke in den attach the tube and let the blood flow down de is not pain. But today the doctor is use sryinge(dunno correct spelling ma) draw my blood de... Damn pain la!! Somemore after that still got blue black lor!


Doctor gave me a medicine for poo poo de, and I only paid like $0.25 at the Pharmacy lor.. Feel so paiseh also taking $0.25 out..haha.. Anyway its for inserting in your rectum then after a while will poo poo liao.. Cause need to clear your bowels before operation ma..


But I don't dare to put it myself, cause like very uncomfortable and pain like that. So got Gordan to do it for me!! Haha.. He was also damn nervous about it lor, but in the end we managed to do it.


Now I can't eat or drink liao, so ke lian sia... And still don't know what time is going to be the operation tomorrow..


Anyway, wish me luck ya, and I'll update ASAP!! Watch out for Baby Tyler's pictures next!!!

It's our 18th month together.

And Gordan is out clubbing, dancing and drinking happily with his friends.

Poor me, left alone at home, watching movies online.

"He must have forgotten all about today." I thought.

"Happy 18th month anniversary. Enjoy." I text him.

No reply from him at all. Guess he is too busy.

Finally he came back, and surprisingly early tonight.

"Dear, I bought something for you.."

"Why buy all the same one?"

I took one out and proceeded to put it in my mouth.

"Dear cannot eat!!"

"Why? Then buy back look ar?"

"If you eat one then only left 98 liao.."

That hubby of mine actually went to buy 99 of the heart shape candy...lol..

Although its not anything much. But that little gesture made this special day one of the sweetest ever.

Love you hubby, so so very much.....

Man killed by white tigers in Singapore Zoo!!!

Seen the news lately?? Can't believe this happened here in Singapore Zoo lor.. At first I saw the news I was thinking "How the hell did the guy drop inside the enclosure de??" Then news reported that he actually went in himself de.. So yeah, he committed suicide by getting himself eaten by white tigers...

Stupid right??

There's like so many other ways to kill yourself lor... Like overdose on sleep pills la, close your windows and turn on the gas, jump down from the rooftop, let car bang and blah blah blah.... Any ways I think would be better than facing 3 white tigers ba...


And apparently they reported that he was shouting for God to help him when the tigers were attacking him. Meaning he regretted going in at that point of time. Basically the tigers attack by biting onto his neck. This is how they hunt their preys, so that they will suffocate. And seem to me like its very very very pain!!! Or else think that guy won't call for help liao..


He went in way before their meal time thus the tigers made a vicious attack on him. Think he thought about that ba.. But seriously, what a way to die lor.... Anyway, at least he's famous now.. And in another way, he made the tigers famous too!!! I also feel like going Zoo to see the tigers now...

Despite the tigers being so fierce, but they are damn cute la!!!

Ain't they so lovable?? But of course nice to see from far, but not nice to get too close la!! Anyway, white tigers are one of the protected animals in the world. Cause they are facing extinction with only around 4000 left in the whole world!!


Anyway, don't think the Zoo will be putting them to sleep because of this incident. Since its the man who climb into the enclosure himself, not them who went out to attack him. Its a natural instinct for them to attack too..


It must be quite a scene to be there witnessing the attack lor... But thinking about it I probably wouldn't dare to look, since it's witnessing a person getting killed and not able to do anything about it..


I think the guy must have some mental problems ba... Since it takes quite a lot of courage to go into the tigers' enclosure. So to think of this way to commit suicide, I think he's quite desperate liao.. Or maybe he love white tigers a lot???

Anyway last but not least, do cherish your life and not think about suicide easily.


(Even if you do, please don't think of jumping into crocodile pond or leopard cage hor...)

Time for checkup again!!!!

My favourite!!!

Last checkup before my delivery liao... I seriously find that being a doctor is so good lor!! Cause everytime I see doc for 10 mins then have to pay $30 liao.. So easy money lor!!


Feeling turbo super sleepy today. Think because of the cooling weather also. Then Gordan also not free to fetch me home, end up have to take cab home myself.


Stopped by Eastpoint and da bao my favourite sushi!! There's this 'Niwa Sushi' and they sell really cheap and nice sushi lor!! Better than the 'Edo Sushi'.. They have this promotion going on buy 3 get 1 free. So I bought 8 boxes at only $8.80 lor!! And their wasabi and soy sauce is free!! The cheaper alternative to enjoy salmon, haha....


The date is set liao, 18th of November, next tuesday. Anyone want to visit me de can text me k?? And if you are thinking of what to get for baby, just bao angbao can liao...hahaha... Cause I don't want you all to waste money buy toys or clothes or what then in the end I don't use it at all de, so cash is more practical ma...


Yawnz..... So sleepy now, think will knock out soon. Ta-ta!!!

Loving my new ring...

Paiseh, I've been real lazy lately...

Nowadays I can't seem to sleep at night, then in the day I'm sleeping. Which explains why I'm writing my blog at this hr, 3:26am!!


Things has been boring lately, that's why I haven't been updating. Wouldn't want to bore you all out too, although its quite boring liao... Having some conflicts on and off with Gordan too so super no mood at times..


I seriously hate guys playing games lor.. Because their temper become worse and nothing else exist except them and the stupid game. And thats how Gordan is lor! He borrowed PSP from his friend, and ever since that, he's been focusing on his game everytime! Even I talk to him also have to repeat 5 times then he will hear me.. Worse thing is he told me his friend gonna pass him a PS2. Die liao lor, think I'm going to break the tv one of these days..


Headed to Tampines a while today, and during my trip there, I bought a ring! For myself of course, since Gordan don't like to wear rings. You must be thinking why I'm buying a ring for myself right? Cause Gordan keep delaying my proposal gift so to make him more guilty I buy it myself lor! Don't have lobster, prawn also good ma...


Went to watch Madagascar 2 that day. Super funny lor!! But some parts will be a bit touching. And being the emotional me, I teared again lor!! But its really a nice show, highly recommended!!


It must be getting boring for you all to keep seeing words and words and words right?? Sorry ar, recently never take any pictures.. Bear with me, will try to load pictures up soon..


Gonna stop here liao, feeling kinda sick today. Must be the cold weather this afternoon..Off to watch my online movies!!

I've been feeling very pissed off about something, or rather someone.

Normally I don't really like to post about such things on my blog, but seriously want to rant it out today.. Anyway I'm damn free at home also..

I've always said to cherish the people around you, don't take them for granted. And that is because I wouldn't want to be taken for granted too. And that's what I felt nowadays.

*I'm not going to mention any names, but guess close friends will know who I'm talking about.*

A LETTER FOR YOU

You've seriously changed a lot. Changed a lot for the worse. And the best part is, you don't even feel anything wrong about it.


Anything new things that you know about me is all through my blog. And everytime when I met up with you, I'll have to retell you things that happened months ago.


6 years of friendship, yet it seem to mean so little to you.


When I scold you on msn that time, I was hoping you will wake up. But no, you didn't.


You seriously made us so disappointed. Not even a call or a msg for so long. Sometimes I can pm you or send you a msg and yet there's no reply from you. And you don't bother to give me a reason why you didn't reply. You just totally forget about the whole thing. Or maybe is msgs I send to you will be auto deleted ba..


From now onwards, you are out of my circle liao.


I'm sick and tired of trying to get you to meet up and not receiving any replies and hearing your endless excuses. But I guess it won't make any difference to you. Since you still have so many friends for you.

I can be very nice, but I have my limit too. Too bad, you went over it.

Went for checkup yesterday....

Finally got the date for my caesearean... Not going to reveal it yet, cause there may be some changes.. Baby is weighing at 2.4kg now only lor! But then its only the estimated weight so he may be heavier...


Next week going for another check up again, then the day before delivery got to go K.K for blood test. So ma fan la!! And I only got like 1 week to do whatever that is left to be done liao.. So rush lor!!

Happening night yesterday also lor!!

After checkup then I go back home sleep liao. Slept all the way till 8plus at night then got up to have dinner. After that was using the com and surfing around when I started to have stomachache. Then slowly the pain start to get worse.


Up to one point, I pain till my hands are both cold lor! Called Gordan and got him to faster come back bring me see doctor. Meanwhile called my aunt also. And she very kua zhang lor, ask me pack my bag liao, think going to give birth liao..


When Gordan came back I still wait for him to bath and eat first. Heng the pain was getting bearable by then. So I was telling him, "If I really going to give birth liao think you have to deliver for me le..." hahahhaa...


Headed to hospital, then got strap on to a machine to monitor baby heartbeat. And very funny de lor, cause that thing is strap on to my tummy, then baby was like kicking it testing to see what is it. Then after that he move himself so his heartbeat is closer to the thing, and its very loud lor!! Think I got a kaypo son...


Anyway after that doctor came to check me, and she was so rough lor! But the nurses there was nice la.. So in the end she say I won't be giving birth yet, so gave me some medications then can go home liao.


Scary night lor... But although took medication liao but still will pain. So uncomfortable sia.. And still need to bear for 1 week plus more....

Pray that I'll feel better soon k??


(Forgive me for the lack of postings, cause I really am not feeling too well to blog too much..)

Weekend was boring, but still managed to catch a movie.

The plot is actually quite predictable. And not much scary parts. And it's so slow lor..... And while we were watching, there was this group of malays sitting behind us. And they were like keep talking and talking and talking lor.. Its damn irritating la, I seriously feel like throwing the cup of drink at them lor!


But it's been quite long since we last went to Plaza Singapura. And everything changed a lot lor! The cinema level there opened a few concept shops, selling all those figurines and all. Saw this Gremlin soft toy there, so cute lor!! (Waiting for Gordan to buy for me...)


We also went to Daiso shop a bit. Bought some snacks there. Gordan very kiasu la, he bought like a whole bag of snacks from home, to eat when watching movie. Luckily never get caught or else think will be very paiseh lor...






Don't know why recently feel so easily tired, and constant backaches also!! And my godma keep scaring me say I going to give birth liao lor... Although I also can't wait to faster give birth, but now I still not prepared yet lor... Still got things to move over, somemore things to buy...

Baby, be a good boy and stay inside k??