Angry

I'm sick, AGAIN! Seriously I think that this is gonna be such a bad year cos I've already been sick twice already..

Had sorethroat (and I'm guessing the culprit is the seaweed titbit), fever and body aches!! Fever was still alright, but its the body aches that makes me want to kill myself. I only slept at 7am this morning when the aches and fever start to go away. And Tyler will still be looking to play with me, but then I'm sick so I can't be too near him. 

Today was better, at least no fever and aches. But still feeling weak and giddy, from all the medicine I took. Was resting in the afternoon, making Tyler sleep and woke up hearing Gordan's mom saying she need to go out. And I was like, 'good luck to me then, sick and I have to take care of Tyler'. 

Anyway, got through it, basically cause practically the whole night I was lying in the living room and Tyler was playing his toys while we watched TV together. 

But that is not the point of this post, I'm so angry now, cause I'm so fucking hungry!!!!!!

If you know me well enough, you should know that I don't like to feel hungry, and my mood gets super bad when I am hungry. I love satisfying my cravings, and hate it when I have to force myself to eat just because people say its not good to waste food.

Eating is an enjoyment, why force yourself to eat when you're full? Just make sure you don't over order. 

And all the people saying sick cannot eat chicken, cannot eat oily food, cannot eat whatever things. I only had like 1/3 porridge the whole damn day ok? Can't I just eat something that would give me some appetite? 

Didn't want to eat porridge just now, porridge, noodles, the thought of it makes me want to vomit le. But Gordan just say to me, "Ok lor, then u want western food?" Of course he's trying to be sacarstic, and I'm not in the mood for it, so I told him to just buy the porridge. I tried to eat as much, but I could only finish 1/3 before my appetite is all gone. 

And I'm so frustrated because I'm damn hungry, people say you have to eat light, I can't buy now because Tyler is sleeping and no one is taking care of him, Gordan didn't reply my msgs. 

Feel like a zombie now, cos all in my mind is FOOD.