Live, Laugh & Love - Life is too short to waste it

Recently it just keeps raining and raining. Somemore its damn big de lor.. Make it so difficult to go out. But then its nice to sleep lor!!




Don't know why I've been feeling damn tired recently. If nothing to do then I'll go to sleep. Maybe I've been 'heaty' liao, feel like gonna be sick like that.




I was discussing with Gordan about whether to go Cesearean or Natural. Then went to check out the forums then I decided, I'm going for Cesearean!!




Of course natural birth is scary la, the pain and everything. And Gordan is not my husband yet so can't go in with me. So imagine you alone facing all the nurses and doctors.... SCARY!!!




The thing with natural birth is, since my first pregnancy is through cesearean, there is a 70% success rate if I have natural birth. The remaining 30% will be probably the old cesearean may tear or can't push or whatever la... Cesearean also got risk also, like if the bleeding won't stop and etc. But B+ de blood not so rare la hor?




But then have to prepare myself for the Cesearean again..... Sob sob.. Basically its like you're awake during the operation. Then they use Epidural on you, which is inject through the spine. Pain wise, bearable ba, but maybe for people who are scared of injections its painful lor.. But one thing i hate is after injecting that, you will keep shivering!




Then they'll strap your hands, so that you wouldn't be able to move about. Then when your lower body is numb then the doctor will start to operate.




They'll cut around your bikini area, 1 line so when recover won't be able to see. The the doctors will push your baby out. Then after that they will clear all the blood and whatever things inside then stitch you up again.




The previous time when they were at the last process I was like keep complaining about very xin ku la (maybe cause of the shivering), then they eventually give me gas and knock me out. Think maybe I too irritating liao.. haha..




But like doctor say its more healthy for baby. Cause baby won't be drowsy when he come out. Then mother and baby bonding will be better too...




Guess have to let myself be brave for the baby ba...




But still, I can't wait for that day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!